A Gift From Tjena
When I lost my beloved soulmate dog, Tjena, to osteosarcoma last year she sent me a gift during her last breath of life. The day had come that I had been dreading for months when the pain medication and alternative medicine stopped working on Tjena. She expressed to me that she could no longer take the pain and it was time to help her transition. Our regular veterinarian that was supposed to come to the house to help Tjena transition was unavailable so we had to drive Tjena to the emergency veterinarian which was about 45 minutes away. It felt like what was the longest drive of my life! I could tell Tjena was in a lot of pain, very uncomfortable and panting the whole time on the drive there. When we finally arrived to the hospital the veterinarian and staff prepared Tjena for her final moments. We all said our last goodbyes and got in as many hugs and snuggles and kisses as we could. I was holding Tjena in my arms laying right next to her and telling her how much I loved her and what a great life we had together as the vet was giving her the last injection to make her heart stop. I know this is so sad to read and I cry as I write this but when Tjena took her last breath, she shared something with me so special and so profound I feel I have to share. In a matter of 1-2 seconds as I was holding her I felt this quick, sharp pain in my left shoulder (where her cancer was in her body) and heard her last heartbeat (BA-BOOM!!). It was so loud it was as if I was hearing it through speakers, although no one else heard it but me. And, she was gone…..just like that. I know this may sound crazy to you and it was! But I have never experienced anything like this before. Our love for each other was so immensely deep that we were this connected to each other. Don’t underestimate the relationship you have with your animals and cherish the moments you have with them.